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The tide of fatigue came sweeping and it left me in the grumpy mode all day long; losing patience over small little things (or not so small things) i.e when the shutdown coordinator specifically mentioned that the schedule was not complete only for PME5 and I was like, WTF, when I have long submitted the work pack, and they shud have prepared the integrated schedule right beforehand..

and then one of the *S annoyed me when we had the clashes of views on the U**T date; it’s easy to instruct and bullshitting about asking the contractor to comply when u are not the one who’s doing the manpower planning, talking about having back up etc, WTH…don’t u realize that we are talking about 3 location shutdown all at once, and we, the EICs are depending on the same contractor to do the works for all the locations??? wit all tos strict requirement of not having the 1st timer offshore to be onboard during shutdown and u expect us to find replacement within 24 hours, yes, we do prepare the back up personnel onshore but it is supposed to cater for any emergency DURING shutdown later on…

then when tis one lembab contractor once again gave me another problem; asked them to submit the revised schedule as the shutdown date has been differed to middle May 2011 instead of 1st May previously; when I have notified them 5 days earlier and still, they din comply…haihh, tat’s wat will happen when u cheated during the tendering; when u so called tutup periuk nasik the one yg deserve to get the job and u will always end up wit the incompliance to Carigali requests and us the EICs to curse u..dah stage yang tak tahu nak buat ape wit this contractor, and the best part, they got two big contracts with us currently, integrated with sko sbo lak tu..and din perform for both contracts..suddenly menyampah wit the PIC, when there’s still no action taken even though we have lodged lotsa complains..

I was tired I guess and was not in the good mood..physically, perhaps contributed from the lack of rest this weekend and lack of sleep last time (got doa selamat for hubby wit everything ends at around 1130 am and have to catch the early flight to kerteh tis morning)..and mentally, probably because I still cant get my head off from thinking of the PPA result tis year. I got 3, wic is expected as my ppa was deliberated among other E2s, and I only being an E2 for less than 4 months (as the ppa started in Jan 2011), and of cos, knowing some of the people who got 2 this year, I kno dat they truly deserve it..

but wat bothers me is probably the remarks from one of the S*; when he said that I dun deserve a 2 tis yr because of the delay in providing response and action for the electrical problem at angsi and because of the electrical downtime for some of the equipments and systems..i was stunned when I heard about the remarks; if there is one thing that I prided myself, that will be on providing the quick action and response on the arising issues..i confided in my gud fren offshore; did I really tat bad in delivering my works??, did he feels the same way too?..hearing that remarks, he was shocked as for him, they always got the prompt response from PME5 in any related issues if compared to some other section..tetiba rasa malas nak buat keje, feels like showing him wat does it really means by providing slow response and actions..and tell him to the face, “la, da en ****** cakap sy kan lambat, availability and uptime tak bagus mana, then tis is wat u deserve la..sounds so unprofessional I kno and i mite not have the guts to confront a manager like that, but for now I just cant tink straight…suddenly miss working with Dulang team, at least they recognized my strength and treats me fairly...

p/s we had the downtime for CCVT tis year, but dont u understand tat it will always happen during the monsoon season?dont u realize that we have minimize the number of tripping with some improvement done if compared to previous years??dont u understand tat it's d communication issues tat prolonged the shutdown last time when we cant monitor the status of CCVT from PG??and y do keep mentioning about UPS failure when that one day downtime was happened in FEB LAST YR? i was just joined angsi for one month at tat time; in case u miss anything, we dont have any plant shutdown because of UPS tis cycle..and are u going to keep on rating and judging me on the years ahead based on the issues happened in the previous cycles?? so much for being fair and square manager, blah la..