...CoLOrS of My LiFe..

yeayy, memo da approved..

2012-01-26T19:00:00.000-08:00

yeayy, finally, PD approved the memo, after keeping it for like, ermm two weeks, huh..super duper excited as this trip will cover two countries; paris and spain..and as i've never been to spain, really looking forward to it..

make activities wiken ini adalah mencari hotels to stays in both paris and spain, ground transportation, factory outlet, handbag nak beli, hahaha, tak berkait langsung dgn main objective for this trip..

..and the scent lingers...

2012-01-25T06:32:00.000-08:00

if there is one thing that i can't so-called live without, that will be my perfumes..it's a bless to be surrounded by nice scented atmosphere, and when it lingers on my body; be it the floral scent, musky, strong or mild; whatever the occasions fit.

among my face's will be gucci by gucci (strong sexy smell), gucci guilty (also d sexy scent, but it din last long on me), DKNY (the purple one-it has the ermm sophisticated scent, hehe), coco mademoiselle chanel (it's very refreshing), Guess (well, tis one mainly because it reminisce me of some sweet memories,a deja-vu ;))...

2012-01-23T19:40:00.000-08:00

A Thousand Years"

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer

[Chorus:]

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

..and i, have come to love u more and more by each living day..

..being 30, and healthy, and pretty..ecehh

2012-01-23T03:35:00.000-08:00

am going to hit 30 by end of tis year, huhu..and miss wrinkles, dull skin, sagging bla..bla sure will come approaching..maka, in a quest to at least delay the process, i've started consuming all these supplements from elken;

i) lady venus : this is the so called jamu, wic has been modernized..claimed to help with the fertilization process, balancing the hormones, reduce the cramps during menstruation, and some even use it during the confinement to replace the traditional jamu. it tasted like ermm, honey + berry perhaps? kinda hard to explain the taste

ii) spirulina: claimed to have so many benefits and so malas to jote it down here..energy booster, speed up the metabolism, helps with fertility etc

iii) dr xeniji : helps to fight cancer cells, claimed to have help many couples who have been trying hard to conceive, boost up metabolism etc..

iv) el marino : aha, tis one is purely to improve the collagen level of our skin, reduce the fine lines, making skin softer and smoother after 28 days of consumption..

v) DHA fish oil: jarang2 makan

i don't really notice the difference so far, but perhaps it will take sometimes for all of those to take effect. but one thing for sure, i started to have break outs lately, and feel extra hot, literally of course, :p..which the SA has so called warned before this, that all these supplements must be followed through with lots water consumption in a day..and hopefully, God willing, can have a baby this year, Amin...

..my lil paradise..

2012-01-23T03:30:00.000-08:00

it's small yet cosy, perfect, at least for me, :)...still, ermm, it lacks of something, perhaps green plants, or nice pictures hanging on the wall..

.....................

2011-06-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

catched me gabra tis morning and i dun like the feeling; dun like it when people hv dat kind of effect on me...

and it will alwaz remains as d 1st love..

2011-06-14T05:22:00.000-07:00

tadi lunch dgn hapez, as he had the CBI to convert his current position to executive position..the assessor was ishak and another lady from PGB...and there was something dat somehow touched my heart and made me miss my old times in dulang....

part of d conversation tat i had wit him..

"lin, aku citer kat dia project yang kita upgrade CT kat dulang D dulu..aku cakap engineer yg paling bagus ko ah, before tu da bertahun asik trip jer, bile ko masuk upgrade CT tu baru ok DLD"

"upgrade2 UPS ni pun seme project syezlin, saya buat dgn dia masa shutdown dulang"

"CBI tadi da mcm jadik ko nyer CBI lak lin, asik aku mention nama ko dlm seme project2 yang dorg ty aku penah buat"

tetiba macam terharu, and at d same time bersyukur dat at least i ad left dulang wit such gud impression to their people..tho am enjoying my time wit angsi now, but still, dulang will alwaz be the 1st love, will alwaz close to d heart...wit so much bitter sweet memories to treasure..

when the face we love is missing, and this time it's for eternity..

2011-05-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

life is funny sometimes, when the person who have raised u for years died and u were not there when they took their last breath..last tuesday, i got an early msg from my mom telling all my siblings that our only grandpa has passed away at 415am..but it was nearly 7am when i read tat text..rushed back to kb, drove like hell but still i cudnt make it, to c him, to kiss him for the last time, huhu..

i can still vaguely remember the times when he accompanied me to school at nite, bought me and my lil bro the bicycles and patiently tought us how to ride and watched warily from afar,brought home the lokan he was so fond looking out for, can still remember him making the bird nests, the time when he and my grandma will bring me with them to their kebun planting the watermelon..amused us when he kept on hearing the opposite things when he started to have the sound trouble problems..so much memories, as he has been there wit us since we were still the lil babies..except for that one estranged time, and i will never forget dat dark witch for tat..but at least, Che left this world at near his birthplace, surrounded by us, his family and the people he knew, he was more fortunate if compared to Wor, and again, thanx to dat dark witch.

she was there during the funeral, together wit his husband; still have the gut to show their faces after all the things that they have done to che and wor and after throwing all tos slandering words to my parents..and do u tink by wearing the tudung labuh now makes u look innocent of all the crimes??, will make me forget all the things u've done to my family? come on, never, not in this life time..do u tink i can erase all the bitter memories and wipe the slate clean? no way bitch....i can still clearly remember when che told us u left him alone at home for weeks, u scolded him because he din wash his clothes and wat do u expect, a 90++ yr old, old man to do all the stuffs, u r the one who bragged tat u will take care of both of them while u r still alive (o yeah, wat a great **** u r) so y did u sent him back after dat 5 yrs u separated us? because he's a poor man, like u loudly told him aite, and the one wit lotsa money was my grandma, and grandma was 5 years dead oredi?....so che was just a burden for u...

when u are not around...

2011-04-29T21:53:00.000-07:00

bile u ader kat rumah time weekend, i akan salo hangin bila u sepahkan bilik, bile u semayang and tak lipat balik sejadah, or bile u sepahkan kain semayang i time u amik sejadah..i salo stress bile u sidai je baju dekat massage chair, and bile u tinggal je mangkuk mug seme dlm sink after u bfast ari ahad time i keje and i jugak yang kene kemas balik seme tu..or sakitnya ati i bila u still tak tolong buang sampah dekat dapur yang i da mintak tolong nicely u buat before i g opis..haishhh

but now, the 1st weekend without u in d house, d house is clean and neat....i shud be happy, but y is that deep down i feel empty?? and suddenly realized that i'd rather bear all tos stressful stuffs u did; rather than staring at the empty wall, enduring the lonely moment; all without u by my side.........................................................................................................................

gosh how i miss u..

2011-04-25T05:29:00.000-07:00

i can still vaguely remember the day u caught my eyes, it was perhaps two or three weeks after my 1st day in PMO..u were wearing a black suit, and there was somethg about u that kinda intriguing, somethg i cant just understand and made me secretly wish to bump into u once again..

and the story began starting 2007..frenship, love and finally marriage; the journey was not easy, not always the bed of roses kind of love story..but as we will always have silver lining after every dark clouds (thanx abeb, abiha and adli), i thank God that we finally made it, and deep down i always know tat i have made the right decision..Thank God for bringing u into my life..

the days fade away quickly whenever am with u, the joy in your laughter, the sparkles in ur eyes, the warm in your hugs, your compassion for everyone around u tat i found to be so admiring.. even it is less than 48 hours since our last goodbye, gosh, my heart is now sinking faster and faster..the last goodbye, when we both trying to be strong, not to shed any tears..but when we both know, deep down it was so hard to conceal the feeling..

i love u, and i miss u sayang, in every single breath, in every single second..wishing that the time will fly fast so that it will be tat awaited 70 days already and to freeze the time for that 20 days break..

jangan langgar pantang, hoho

2011-04-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

makan ikan tongkol was never an issue wit me before, and definitely i dun have allergy for any sea food or fish in particular..but tis was wat happened to me last sunday..had bfast wit nasi dagang ikan tongkol and around 12pm, started to feel itchy around my back..tot it was normal and mite because of the bed sheet..but it's getting worse in d evening, swollen wit the red patches and found myself starting to scratch all over my body..

as i cudnt take it anymore, we went to Klinik Kita in Ampang, the dr (a very young lady, gez younger than me) prescribed two types of tablet wic were supposed to reduce the allergy and swipe away the itchiness..but later at nite, as i din feel any better, we decided to straight away get the shot at prince court. the dr was quite shocked when i showed him one of the earlier prescribed tablet; it contained the STEROID and it was not supposed to be given to the patients...gosh, luckily i went straight away to prince court tat nite, or else i wud have swallow them all and just think about the side effects later on..haiyaaa, started to feel sceptic about being treated by a young dr (but to be fair, some are very good tho)..

lesson learnt:

i) jgn langgar pantang larang org tua2..ikan2 yang gatal it not supposed to be taken during pantang (was on my 33rd day of pantang)..it mite be ok during normal time, but probably due to some hormonal changes, the body reacted differently.

mode: serabut

2011-04-18T06:58:00.000-07:00

The tide of fatigue came sweeping and it left me in the grumpy mode all day long; losing patience over small little things (or not so small things) i.e when the shutdown coordinator specifically mentioned that the schedule was not complete only for PME5 and I was like, WTF, when I have long submitted the work pack, and they shud have prepared the integrated schedule right beforehand..

and then one of the *S annoyed me when we had the clashes of views on the U**T date; it’s easy to instruct and bullshitting about asking the contractor to comply when u are not the one who’s doing the manpower planning, talking about having back up etc, WTH…don’t u realize that we are talking about 3 location shutdown all at once, and we, the EICs are depending on the same contractor to do the works for all the locations??? wit all tos strict requirement of not having the 1st timer offshore to be onboard during shutdown and u expect us to find replacement within 24 hours, yes, we do prepare the back up personnel onshore but it is supposed to cater for any emergency DURING shutdown later on…

then when tis one lembab contractor once again gave me another problem; asked them to submit the revised schedule as the shutdown date has been differed to middle May 2011 instead of 1st May previously; when I have notified them 5 days earlier and still, they din comply…haihh, tat’s wat will happen when u cheated during the tendering; when u so called tutup periuk nasik the one yg deserve to get the job and u will always end up wit the incompliance to Carigali requests and us the EICs to curse u..dah stage yang tak tahu nak buat ape wit this contractor, and the best part, they got two big contracts with us currently, integrated with sko sbo lak tu..and din perform for both contracts..suddenly menyampah wit the PIC, when there’s still no action taken even though we have lodged lotsa complains..

I was tired I guess and was not in the good mood..physically, perhaps contributed from the lack of rest this weekend and lack of sleep last time (got doa selamat for hubby wit everything ends at around 1130 am and have to catch the early flight to kerteh tis morning)..and mentally, probably because I still cant get my head off from thinking of the PPA result tis year. I got 3, wic is expected as my ppa was deliberated among other E2s, and I only being an E2 for less than 4 months (as the ppa started in Jan 2011), and of cos, knowing some of the people who got 2 this year, I kno dat they truly deserve it..

but wat bothers me is probably the remarks from one of the S*; when he said that I dun deserve a 2 tis yr because of the delay in providing response and action for the electrical problem at angsi and because of the electrical downtime for some of the equipments and systems..i was stunned when I heard about the remarks; if there is one thing that I prided myself, that will be on providing the quick action and response on the arising issues..i confided in my gud fren offshore; did I really tat bad in delivering my works??, did he feels the same way too?..hearing that remarks, he was shocked as for him, they always got the prompt response from PME5 in any related issues if compared to some other section..tetiba rasa malas nak buat keje, feels like showing him wat does it really means by providing slow response and actions..and tell him to the face, “la, da en ****** cakap sy kan lambat, availability and uptime tak bagus mana, then tis is wat u deserve la..sounds so unprofessional I kno and i mite not have the guts to confront a manager like that, but for now I just cant tink straight…suddenly miss working with Dulang team, at least they recognized my strength and treats me fairly...

p/s we had the downtime for CCVT tis year, but dont u understand tat it will always happen during the monsoon season?dont u realize that we have minimize the number of tripping with some improvement done if compared to previous years??dont u understand tat it's d communication issues tat prolonged the shutdown last time when we cant monitor the status of CCVT from PG??and y do keep mentioning about UPS failure when that one day downtime was happened in FEB LAST YR? i was just joined angsi for one month at tat time; in case u miss anything, we dont have any plant shutdown because of UPS tis cycle..and are u going to keep on rating and judging me on the years ahead based on the issues happened in the previous cycles?? so much for being fair and square manager, blah la..

sudan oh sudan..

2011-04-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

emirates ke sudan amik masa 3 days to reach qartum and lagi 2 days balik mesia..kesimpulannya 5 days da abeh travelling..makanya kalo nak apply cuti kalo 3 weeks adalah cuma ~ 2 weeks je lebih kurang..

akak depan umah datang borak2 petang tadi, as her husband also in sudan currently..she told me to pack all tos frozen fuds like squids, prawns, lotsa brahims etc..her husband has been there for 3 years and waiting to be transferred back to kerteh, but as there is still no replacement to overtake his position, his transfer is kept on hold..haiyaa, wat if it takes more than 3 years for hubby to stay there??huhu

even if we are far apart, we will still looking at the same sky...

2011-04-12T05:22:00.000-07:00

hubby dropped the news a few days ago, he finally got the transferred letter to Sudan and officially it is for at least 3 years. I actually had a mixed feeling about this arrangement, of course am so happy for him as he stands a big opportunity to move forward in his career with this transfer and most importantly he's happy to be out of SP (yeah, because of that impossible old fella)..and the best part is for the 70-20 days arrangement, definitely better for us to have tat longingly longer break together (20 days straight in a row) instead of seeing each other during every weekend; it's not even close to two days due to different weekend between kl and kerteh..but deep down, am i strong enough to be so far apart from him for almost more than 2 months each time? is he going to be alright being alone in tat so called hostile country? wat if he got sick but i can do nothing and feel so helpless because we were thousands miles away?..but still, have to be strong and camouflage the feeling so that he wont end up worrying about leaving me alone.

someone asked me y din i asked for transfer to KL; and someone used to throw tis hurtful remark "am the one who put the career as priority over the family"..i din asked for transfer because ultimately we want to start a family in kerteh, because we both love the serenity, work life and personal life in kerteh, because hubby will ask for the position back in kerteh sometimes later, because i dont want to risk being assigned to Lumut or pasir gudang and has to work at the yard even during pregnancy (if) like one of my fren; kerteh is definitely nearer to kl and better if compared to tos two places; at least for me it is, because i dont want to risk being assigned to any overseas project if i am to join DD.....but wateva my reason is, definitely it is not for the people to judge...

am thinking of following hubby to sudan at least for two weeks or one month later..but has to wait until after angsi shutdown, or else kesian rahimi to take over my jobs when he himself is occupied with lots of things on his plate..

When He Has Another Plan for Us...

2011-04-10T05:50:00.000-07:00

i wrote about how happy i was with my pregnancy about 3 months ago in this blog; pregnant with the 1st baby, of cos la the excitement was beyond words..everything seems so normal at first, i din even have the morning sickness syndrom which i was so relieved of at that time, was taking vitamins as prescribed by doctors, trying not to get stressed with works (and at some points dat i can remember, during my pregnancy last time la yg i dun really lost my temper or stressed out over little things etc)..was so excited tat i spent most of my time reading books about pregnancy, the day to day journey, even can imagine the small little hands curling into mine, browsing tru the pregnancy attire (even bought some of them oredi)..

until one day, when the lost was within grasp and shattered our happiness. It was on Tuesday, 8/3/11, when i realized about the brown spotting on my panties, it's very little tho. But i started to feel uncomfortable tat i went to Bihah, confided in her and we went to Klinik Rantau. The Dr did the ultrasound and she dropped the shattering news. She cud see the sac but there was no baby inside. But as there might be some possibilities that the growth was very slow, she advised me to see the specialist as they can do the vagina scan which can give the clearer picture of the baby.

For some reason i waited until Thursday to see the specialist (thanx abeb btw for the offer,:)). Took the flight on Thursday morning and headed straight to Prince Court wit my hubby. The Dr asked a few questions; am i having my menses regularly?when was my last period etc..and he straight away concluded tat there was a high chance that i was having the missed miscarriage (previously known as blighted ovum). Was about to shed the tears when i heard him saying dat, when i was reli hoping for the miracles, so tat our baby was still alive at tat time. He was being so blunt but later on, i gez i would prefer the Dr to be dat way, there's no points of letting the patients pinning hope over something fragile. However we did the vagina scan, and i can saw my baby, but he's not breathing anymore. The Dr told us tat the size was too small for a 9 weeks pregnancy, might has stopped growing at 6 weeks.

I told the Dr tat i wanna wait for another one week (still hoping for the miracles); it cant be latter than tat as D&C is a must or else we gonna risk of getting the infection etc which might tempered with another attempt to conceive..but have a change of mind when one of my fren who had the same miscarriage symptoms told me tat she had the heavy bleeding after 2 3 days being diagnosed with the same missed miscarriage. and taking into consideration tat i lived alone in Kerteh, wat if i heavily bleed at nite etc, i decided to do the D&C and redha that i already lost my baby.

I was admitted on Sunday nite, did another vagina scan on Monday morning to reconfirm (and the result was still the same), the Dr insert the induced tablet inside the vagina to help inducing the path so tat it will be easier to perform the D&C. started to have the cramps and bleeding continously after that until around 130pm. I was admitted to the operation theather, was under GA and when i opened my eyes at around 4pm, i was already at the waiting bay, waited for me to be stabilized before sending back to the room. Feel a bit sore in my tummy but thanks to GA and antibiotics, the pains were bearable. The D&C process was only taking about 10-15mins but the GA process and waiting for the patients to be awake contributed to the long side of the process.

and now, after almost a month, i think am able to take it positively; there's always silver lining after every dark clouds aite? and another thing, He has granted me with lotsa big things these years around; happily married wit the man tat i loved, got my e2 in less than 4 years, 2 ppa rating 2 out of 3 cycles, financially stable, surrounded by good peoples..so perhaps He thinks tat if He is to bestow everything all at once to me, i might end up forgeting Him and take things for granted. So definitely am redha with this test and praying hard to have babies in near future..

To hubby especially, thank u for being strong and calmly accept this lost; tho i know tat we both feel the bereft and emptiness deep down

To my families, thank u for taking care of me..

And to my frens, thanx for all the supports and encouragement..

i definitely love all of u.....

When u are emotionally unstable, then u do retail theraphy..

2011-04-10T04:55:00.000-07:00

hahaha, not sure whether the title is valid anymore or no, as it has been more 4 weeks since the D&C (owh, thinking of writing a long entry on my D&C experience)..but still, it's good reason i gez to splurge without being scolded by other half hahaha..

this is the new Dior black sun shades wic i bought yesterday at Mesra Mall, wasnt plan to get one actually as i was just accompanying hubby to buy the new glasses. but as he picked one of the Tag Heuer glasses and made up his mind to buy that one, i was like errrr, ini tidak adil, hahaha..was browsing tru the sunglasses that they have and tried one by one just to kill the time as hubby was doing his eye test thingy..but as tat adik SA were so nice and warm to us and always a soft hearted person (chewaahh, hahah), tak sampai hati to walk away without buying one..owh btw, adik SA tu ckp camni "akak, akak chubby kak (erkk), cantik akak pakai spec besar mcm ni, ader tu sorg customer muka dia kurus, pakai spec besar muka dia nampak kelaka..cett, adik tu memuji sambil mengutuk, but innocently wic amused me n i juz laughed at his remarks instead of being offended..

hubby's new glasses

My new Dior pandangan depan lak, hehe

switzerland...

2011-03-06T06:33:00.000-08:00

tetiba rasa macam nak g jalan2 kat switzerland, cantik la pulak tgk pics ni..adakah ni boleh dikira mengidam, hahaha...

lack of something i gez...

2011-03-06T01:42:00.000-08:00

start re-arranging the furniture after hubby went back today, not much of re-arranging tho, haha..decided to go minimal with the decoration, furniture etc and to limit the range of colors as much as we can and to have black and white theme to dominate the space..alwayz have a thing for black and white combo as for me it represent simple yet elegent ambience; mite not be the same with the rest tho, :) as it can sometimes look very dull and lifeless...

started with the room, discard most of the cosmetics that i longer use (sayang tho, byk lagi some tu, huhu) and stick to only one facial brand now..and re-arranging the accessories and perfumes..

the living room (wonder how this pic rotated by itself, huhu)

the dining room and the massage chair

the dining table (close up)

gez it lacks something on the wall tho, some nice photos or pics will do, aite..

p/s pelik btol caner pics ni boleh rotate sendiri jadi pelik cam kat atas ni, haiyaa..nanti la betulkan balik

FINALLY ARRIVED..

2011-03-01T04:37:00.000-08:00

finally, my new BB torch..lama sunggu Celcom ni, janji seminggu dua jer, ni da dekat sebulan ..and as usual, waiting for hubby to come home and configure the fon, upload lagu, pics, seme3 la pendek kata..haha

BOOKS TAT KEEPING ME COMPANY LATELY..

2011-03-01T03:56:00.000-08:00

pregnant with the 1st baby left me a bit clueless about wat to expect, wat to do and wat not..yeah, frens are all around and of course families do share their pregnancies experience. but it feels good to have some other detail reference (secara ilmiahnya, haha) on wat to expect during this whole 9 months period..

started investing in books, but the ones tat really keep me hooked are these two in the pics..wat to expect during expecting and day by day pregnancy book...the day to day book is kinda pricey, bought it at 140 from kinokuniya, but definitely it's worth it..with the colourful illustration and i can just flip tru to which day am currently at..a perfect guidance definitely..:)

Knowing there is another life inside of u...:)

2011-02-17T00:50:00.000-08:00

went for the pregnancy test at rantau this morning, and Alhamdullilah, the result was positive..thank God for the bless, cudnt be much happier, :)..the dr said that it is already 6 weeks (haha, about the same like Dr Khaliq told me last time, lucky tat i din argue wit him; shud remember tat d dr are d ones who got the med degree and me wit the eng one; still, am a dr too wat, for UPS, generator,MTG, CCVT, hahahha..owh silap, i shud be the MA, my electricians lg terer than me, ahhaha)..

Maka now officially "terpaksa", hahha, buying the new clothes, and no more stilettos for another 8 months..hoho, besar sacrifice ni, hahha..

have to forget some of my 5 inch stilettos for months, hoho..

U R D BEST, :P

2011-01-25T03:29:00.000-08:00

entry ini aku tujukan khas untuk ko abeb, chewaahh, mesti ko terharu baca kan, hahha..

tetiba aku rasa nak ucapkan time kasih plak untuk benda2 yang telah ko lakukan untuk aku hari ini (yg sebelum2 ni aku da lupa lak ape, hahhahahhah)...

i) kita mulakan dgn waktu pagi: time kasih belikan breakfast wic aku lupa bayar tadi, haha
ii) tima kasih sb sudi (:P) teman aku balik umah
iii) tima kasih sb drivekan kete aku balik umah (dan masuk parking dgn cemerlang)
iv) tima kasih sb tolong masakkan megi and telur hancur untuk aku selaku guest di rumah sendiri and untuk ko sekali
v) sb masakkan ayam goreng ayamas eventho tak masak, hahah..

tapi aku da counter balik dgn ice lemon tea yg best tadi kan..kan...

U were just getting on my nerves dude..

2011-01-18T02:18:00.000-08:00

when people say that first impression can last forever, now i gez it's true..as no matter how i tried to be nice to u, or being a gud fren to u; it will never change anything, i will alwaz be someone that u pictured when u 1st met me (and the best part; it was influenced by dat-what-d-heck-were-u-poking-nose-into-my-affair kind of people whom i also regard as frens)..but then again, yeah, y shud i bother, got nottin to lose and u can keep wateva things u think about me for as long as u want..and i will from now on, treat u exactly like wat u picture me to be...

All the little thing, my face has to endure...

2011-01-17T03:24:00.000-08:00

If only the face can talk, not sure either it will grin and gave that ears wide smile or grimace in exasperation, haha, as it has to absorb all tos things I pat on it, obediently twice a day..yeah, feels like talking about the skin care that I currently use (while wondering will I age gracefully, come another 5 6 years times, will that much terrifying wrinkles fades away (eh silap, it doesn’t appear yet, so the right wish is patutnya takde kua langsung, haha), will I look like Winnie Teoh (ape dah nama dia, the founder of a cut above) when i hit 50?)..people say approaching 30 is darn terrifying, and I gez every women feels d same way too..but again, aging is natural, nottin that we can do to stop d process; so instead of worrying about hitting 30, I gez i better start taking extra care of the skin now, so that when I am in my 30ish, or 40ish, I can proudly state my age and look years younger than that, Aminnnn;)..so presenting: my skin care regime, ;)..

so let's starts our SKII journey, ;)..

It starts with this facial treatment cleansing oil, a 2 in one cleansing oil that can thoroughly dissolves stubborn make up, oil based formula and i love the way my skin feels extra smooth after each application. Has to spread it over on d face, massage it in a circular motion, add a small water and cont to massage until oil has becomes white and emulsified. But only use it at nite time before cleanser.

Then comes the facial treatment cleanser, wet the face and use the water to foam cleanser into rich lather.as what the SA told me, the more lather we produce, the cleaner and smoother our face will be..

3rd, the facial treatment clear lotion, act as a toner, and also has the exfoliating medium (careful to avoid the eyes area ya)..one of the reason y SKII doesnt have the scrub in its range is because both clear lotion and miracle essence have already act as the exfoliator.

and here comes the ever famous essense, enriched wit dat miss pitera which claims to have generous number of goodness to the skin..but one thing that i notice, i wont really work if we combine it wit other skin care as i combine it with Dermalogica previously (cett, nak gak kene beli d whole set, haiyaa created a big hole in my purse)..

the 5th step, is the facial treatment repair C which claims to boost the skin renewal process, leaving the skin feeling velvety smooth (ye ke eh, ermm, mungkin untukku, ia masih mengambil masa untuk menyesuaikan diri, :P)..

waahhh, da 5 steps, baru perasan byk rupanya routine2 skin care ini,patutla asik lambat g opis every morning, hahha..

The 6th step-skin cellumination essence- to brighten the aura (haha, tho am bit sceptic about improving the aura via an essence, still, as i just want it, so i just bought it (blame it on the impulse buying trait that is so hard to resist, hahah

ok, step ke 7-skin signature rich melting cream-one of SKII best seller, meant to treat the aging skin, but belasah la, prevention is better than cure right, hehe..as the SA told me that for my age, it's ok to start using the cream..

and finally the last step: using the sun block to prevent the harmful UV rays, even during the cloudy days..ahh, and i just got to know that one of the factor creating the wrinkles is via the UV rays. For the sun block, am still using my Dermalogica sun block, so sayang to discard it away, and so sayang to fork out another few hundreds to buy the new SKII sunblock, huhu..

am happy with the result so far, after about one month using the whole complete set..it might not noticeable to others yet, but at least me myself can notice the improvement to my skin..and may after using it for some times, my skin can really glow like tos SKII spokesperson, hehe..

i juz wannit...

2011-01-12T05:46:00.000-08:00

told abeb dat the sole reason y i tink am in need of the ipad is tat..merely because "i juz wan it" (hahah, only abeb can imitate the way i pronounce it).. and she said tat it will be such a waste as am not goin to use d application anyway, so i replied " ko beli ifon buleh plak abeb"..and dengan mengadanya she replied, hahah.."but i juz use it" wit d same gedix like i do wit "i juz wannit" hahha..cett, lawan tokey btol, hahaha...

owh macaroon..

2011-01-11T04:56:00.000-08:00

try it people, tasted darn gud esp d one in chocolate flavour..

Tho again, it's nottin compared to the one i had in paris, huhu.. i 1st tasted d macaroon at tat city of love, from one shop at d lourve and fell in love instantly (bolehla mengubat hati yang kecewa sb d lourve was closed time kitorg pegi-ahh attention peeps, the lourve is closed on every tuesday ya).

arghhh, i juz miss dat macaroon, huhu (disebabkan macaroon kat msia tak sebes in paris, TERPAKSA pergi lagi, hahah)...owh what if i crave for dat macaroon if i got pregnant later on or worse (chewahh, better sebenarnya) craving to have it in Paris? apakah response en suami seandainya terjadi begitu??hahhahha

animasayoo...

2011-01-11T03:41:00.000-08:00

haha, is dat d right hello greeting dat i heard when we entered this restaurant? not sure but belasah la, haha..been passing by the place like so many times before but as i was a bit sceptic on the halal side of the food preparation, tis place was out of the list, din kno dat it already got d Halal cert..located at level 4 in KLCC, the only Korean food restaurant at tat level but i forgot d name of the restaurant.. i dun have the photo of d restaurant from d entrance so feast ur eyes wit d menu la k, hahha

My 1st time trying out their food was wit Cku and abiha, and honestly tat was the 1st time i ever tasted the korean food, tho long to taste the ever so famous kimchi since i watched Full House years before (which was like 5-6 years back, hahah, it was a long wait isnt it?)..y kimchi, probably because of the myth saying dat it is one of the effective weight lost aid, hehe..

C Ku and MAM..C Ku menunjukkan bakat menggunakan chopstick, haha

aha, so tis is kimchi, xla bes sgt, :P

sedap tak lein?"hahaha, ke awak ty ape dah eh abiha??

haha, licin je semua daging2 tu, punyerla awal2 tu semua cakap byk

the 2nd time was last week, decided to treat hubby to tis place, da bosan chakri and tat vietnam restaurant at tat 4th level

Dae Cu Kui, tasted so-so to me, u mite love it if u love d fish related dishes but dats all, nottin special to my liking..

Kim Chi Ji Gae..combination of vege and korean err tomyam kot?hehe..

Special Jumuluk; definitely worth a try, the meat tasted darn soft, chewy and just perfectly marinade..i tink it's tenderloin, Bul Gal Bi is the one from the rib (if am not mistaken la, from wat d waiter told us)

hubby's trying out the food, a lil bit of everything..

will i order that kimchi set next time?probably no as am not a bif fan of vege, hehe

happy face of a satisfied customer (ahh dang, pipi da gemuk, haha, entry tak berkait)

So long Angie..(=

2010-11-25T18:12:00.000-08:00

last day with lovely housemate, huhuhu..suddenly becomes a bit sentimental here, hehe..

am sure gonna miss our chit chat time after coming back from office, the gal's talk dat we have about d skincare dat we use, wic hair color looks best..huhu..and am sure gonna miss ya babe, huhu..

Gud luck darl, wish dat all the best things will come on ur way; any path dat u choose, :)..

MY JOURNEY TOWARDS THAT GLOWING PORCELAIN SKIN, haha..

2010-11-18T02:46:00.000-08:00

since i was young, i always admire women with that flawless porcelain face, yeah, as i was not born with one, ;)..in fact, i was still hopping from one brand to another; just name it, i've tried that money-frenly money, hehe like total effect, neutrogena, bio-essence to the herbal based brand like sendayu tinggi and also to that arghh-it's eating up my salary this month-brand (hi end) like shiseido, clinique, biotherm etc..but still, i will say tat my face always ended up either a bit dry, or lose the radiance and glow..until one day, i notice about yura's radiant complexion; and her secret was/is..dermalogica..

a sucker to the maybe-this-brand-will-work-for me-this-time, started using dermalogica over one year ago, and the verdict, it was the best skincare product i've ever tried, at least until one month ago. not dat am saying my face turned to tat flawless porcelain korean artiste-lookalike tat i alwaz admire, but it didnt give the skin problem like my previous product did..so i was happy wit dermalogica until one day, the reflection of myself that i saw in the mirror was kinda dull, so maybe the product has got immune with my skin and will not be as effective as before..so once again, the search for the next best product starts..huhuhu

and throughout the "journey", haha, succumbed to the "tempation" by tis one SA at SKII counter one day, ehhehe..and yeah, she definitely got d skin tat will lure u to buy the product so i tried tis skII facial treatment essence. True enough, i gez, my face feel more supple after about one month using it, and perhaps a bit brighter. But not to forget, tis tiny white bumps appeared on my face (wic the SA claimed, shud be normal as this essence will detoxify the skin)..and it so easy to use, just put few drops of the essence on the facial cotton, and dab it on the face (not advisable to put it on ur palm and dab it to the face as the pitera will be absorb by the skin of our palm)..but the drawback will be the price, one 150ml will cost us ~RM 350 (if am not mistaken), huhu..

Now, am still using some of my dermalogica product like the cleanser, toner, sunblock and mix it with tis essence..and also add up the cellumination essence into the range 2 days ago. tis essence is to be used after the miracle essence and claimed to be able to brighten the aura (hehe, not sure whether it's true or no, hv to wait for maybe 8 weeks for the review..

but again, envy the people who are blessed with normal or gud skin condition, who doesnt hv to splurge the money on the skincare treatment..and hope tat one day, i'll found d range wic really suits my skin, and err hopefully of dat money-frenly range..;)..

NEW HAIR CUT AND LOVIN' IT..

2010-11-18T02:35:00.000-08:00

had tis new hair style at centro hair saloon, KLCC and loving it to bits..but then, too bad that it only last for one day, and then it was back to my original curls..huhu..shud consider hair relaxing 1st, and maybe nex time, tis hair style might last longer...;)..

FULL HOUSE IN MALAYSIA???

2010-09-30T19:19:00.000-07:00

Full house casts in Malaysia? hehe...it's a restaurant actually, and i 1st saw it when me n balqis passed by tat road on d way to KLCC last wednesday..hearing d name, and that huge glass pane, sorta reminisced d ever sweet hilarious korean drama, Full House featuring rain with dat sweet porcelain-look actress (cant remember d name)..I checked out out the inet and decided to gave it a try last nite, as am a sucker to the nice decorated ambience and the photos of this restaurant are kinda tempting, hehhe..

Reached the place at around 9pm, was greeted by bunch of people taking photos in front of the main entrance, white wooden furniture and curtain, very nice deco, cute and cozy wit their white theme, make it look spacious and fairy tale-ish..juz a perfect place to hang out either wit our loved ones or frens..

We opted for d alfresco dining, amid a garden with a fountain on the ground floor and a rooftop balcony upstairs. the rest of the story, just enjoy the photos below ya, ;)..

chicken chop

White everything.....

at d main entrance

The main course were not bad, the soups are oso recommeded. n tat honey lime aloe drink is juz superb

clothes for sale....

our two main course for d nite.. arent d pictures inside d frames cute?

and now it's time to go home, bye2 full house, ;)

something special?

2010-09-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

his bday is juz 5 days ahead, and am cracking my head for the perfect gift; to make it special and memorable each time...

HOTEL HOPPING

2010-01-04T05:22:00.000-08:00

It has always been one of my fave thing to do, hotel hopping, ;)..perhaps it is because of my hidden interest on the interior decorating stuffs (but not the hidden talent tho, i admire the masterpiece or the finishing touch but interior decoration is juz not my forte)..back to the old times (izzit??as it was only about 4 yrs ago), when i 1st started working, was darn eager of trying out every hotel in kl, ahakss (yerla, mana nak penah duduk hotel2 lawa before keje kan), snap the pics of the hotel room and sitting on the edge of my bed wishing that i can have dat kind of room one day, in juz exactly the same interior finishing..

And talking about the verdict, the 1st place goes tooooooo....sheraton imperial KL, love the deco so much and also the hotel ambiance, with modern royal-ish (they got a warm welcoming msg on the flat screen TV when u 1st enter the room) but the drawback is, it’s a bit far from KLCC, so this is not a hotel of choice if i am about to have meetings in KLCC. Then here goes some of my fave hotels’ deco: the garden hotel, md valley (the urban room deco and shower);

maya hotel, kl (i luv the shower deco, with that parker finishing but their service is getting “meek” nowadays) ; imperial international kk (yeah, surprisingly the deco was darn impressive), the ascott (a very modern and convenient service apartment) ..to sum up, hotels with urban contemporary interior always grab my attention and secure the liking..and talking about some of the rest; palace of golden house with the beautiful breathtaking royal secluded scenery (but it's hard to get a cab there)..mandarin oriental and marriot bb with that posh, classy but sometimes surrounds by an intimidating aura (because lotsa bosses stay there, hehhe..MO i mean..)..

haihhh, so lambat to upload the pics, huhu..got some pics of the hotels to share here..

NEW YEAR NEW ME??

2010-01-04T03:55:00.000-08:00

At the stroke of midnite, presenting the new year; 2010, heheh (well, that was 4 days back btw, heheh)..lotsa things happened in 2009, n one of the moments that i cherished the most; officially tied the knot with that beloved someone (honey, i love u, so deep n so true, :), promise that i'll make u happy, fill your days with laughter and be by ur side through your up n down..)

Pepel will ask about the resolution when the new year comes, wic sometimes left me clueless on how to answer or perhaps i just dun bother to tink of any, as am not a believer of setting up the new resolution only on the verge of year end closing, heheh..but while doing some blog hopping, everyone seems to be talking about their new yr resolution wic left me wondering about mine..and i guess i have a few to achive this yr:

i) wanna close all my ACD gaps (have 4 more gaps to close before i can move to E2, huhuh, mampu ke tak ni)

ii) start requesting for transfer to KLCC and hopefully by end of March 2011, i'll be working in KLCC already (i like kerteh/pmo better, careerwise/performancewise, i tink it's much better to be in operation but heyy, shud give it a try isnt it..i love my work in PMO but tis long distance relation torments us a lots

iii) shed off a few more pounds, targeting on 50kg, heheh (but wanna maintain the curves, hahhaha)

iv) perfecting my cooking skills (disebabkan rase kesian kepada en shahrul, hahha)

v) joining the dance class (been wanting to do tis after graduation but wer can i find a dance class in kerteh/kemaman area)

vi) heheh, tis azam is sorta embarrasing to put in writing here, ok, it's more to the impian, not-so-reachable dream, hahha..wish to be a part of the cast in any Petronas advertisement"blush"..not the Petronas TV commercials, but the video like the Petronas Brand Essence etc..well, there's no harm in dreaming aite, hihih..

vii) and finally, i gez this one goes without saying; to be a better person than the rest of previous years..be more generous with my time, more attentive, to be in better control of my temper and the list goes on...:)

viii) making a baby??welllll, wink..wink...hehhe

when caring for someone hurts..

2009-09-29T05:24:00.000-07:00

u've turned me down countless times and u expect me to thank u someday for that?

domestic day..today

2009-07-23T22:22:00.000-07:00

yeahhh, finally, after one month plus spending the wiken away from ma home in kerteh, as i spent most of my wiken either in kl, or sabah, or miri, or went back to kb..And really, last month was such a bliss, lotsa jalan2, hihi (tho H1N1 is kinda traumatizing,heh)..n now today, is the domestic day, to do all the so-called mundane stuffs..well, perhaps not that mundane la, more to wifey2-stuffs-to-do,hahha, doin the laundries, tidying up the room, decorating the scrap book (erkk, have been about a year working on it,haihh, tak siap2), but all in all, just wanna have my sweet me-time today, laze around in my room and yeah, perhaps to think of something to write about...

twilight again..book vs movie

2009-06-22T05:45:00.000-07:00

n it's twilight time again..now that i've read and watched both of the movie n book, haih, i will say that the movie kinda dissapoint me..not that am saying the movie is mundane or something, it juz when u have read the book, u started expecting the plot to be exactly like the author's masterpiece but then again, it will definitely takes hours and hours if the producer wants to transform every bit of the book into a movie..yeah, the same goes for angels n demon, the book was darn worth reading it but i started comparing the plots in the movie with the book while watching it...ok, back to twilight, however, the plus point is that they got gorgeous casts, hehhe..bella n edward; they look stunning together; bella with her expressionless face and edward with his dashing style and when he flashed his white shining teeth smiling, uhhh, gals will definitely melt, hahha..but still, i gez tarabas (from the cave and the golden rose, or wats the title eh, lupa) is better suited to be a vampire, hhaha, drop dead handsome vampire...

twilight

2009-06-18T20:02:00.000-07:00

thanx to the wide rife of its advertisement,hehhe, tis book kinda lure me to buy it and yeah, kept me glued on my bed to fin every single bit of it (i had tis kinda one habit; to read the last pages of a book and if i find the ending is up to my liking, only then i will read the whole book; if not then i will just discard it off to the shelf, hhaha)..back in my matriculation time, sort of having a crush on "vampires", hahha, literally of course, in the author's imagination, the vampire is always head- turningly good looking, with mesmerising eyes, sharp jaws and cheek bones and yeah, they can lure u to them just by talking to them, or when u look straight into his eyes, hhaha, sound like a paragon male supermodel isnt it..the same goes for the twilight, edward is darn stunning, and the way he unconditionally loves bella and willing to forsake anything to protect her was "bewilderingly" touching a heart. I like the 1st part of this book, when they first met, times when edward struggling not to be too close to her, when they both felt the chemical attraction but trying to deny it bla..bla..well now, i gez i need to buy the dvd, downloading from the inet is driving me crazy, sigh..and next, wanna get the next book in tis saga "new moon"...

thank you

2009-06-15T06:20:00.000-07:00

Dear darling,

Thank you for (kindly refer the details as below, hahah):

1) For the cute lil box and the chocs inside (was a bit stunned when yee fong suddenly came into the meeting room and told me that it was coming from u)

2) For flying all the way from KL-Kerteh and again, having your route back to KL today (elehh, the real intention was to prepare the TCOT package for en masri padahalnya)

3) For the sweet lil surprise for me today that it was darn touched my heart (cheh, selamba tak gtau nak balik kerteh)

4) For the sweet lil note inside the box (errr, so-called "sweet" note is more like it, :P)

...But all in all, i shud thank you honey; thank you for being you...

Yours sincerely, (haha)
pan2

clueless

2009-06-14T04:08:00.000-07:00

have u ever been caught entangled in a situation wer u dunno about wat was really goin on? when someone that used to offer so much comfort and lend u his shoulder to cry on was suddenly became aloof and distant? when u started thinking that all the rainbows that u've shared together was suddenly vanish in the air, and in juz a blink of eye? when u used to think that he must be an angel from above that God sent to protect u? when he used to be the big bro that u have longed for the whole your life? cause i do now, when u look at me as if i dun exist..cause i do now, when u cut me off juz like that. cause i do now, when u offer no explanation at all and suddenly u juz back off. and when u leave me clueless and bereft of hope...

Finally..

2009-06-13T03:08:00.000-07:00

yeah, finally enuff, heheh..i've been wanting to have my own blog for quite sometimes, been doing lotsa blog hopping but clueless on things that i wanna share bout my journey of life, on how i live my life, bla, bla..i used to write diaries before, but ending up wit only few pages in a year long, 10 pages is the max so far i gez, hehhe..so now, finally knocked some senses into my head, ahakss, wanna try blogging so that one day, when my 40ish, 50ish time comes, this blog will be there for me; to reminisce the sweet and bitter memories; COLORS of MY LIFE...